depression
Revelations
28/09/08 22:07 Filed in: Depression
I’ve been in
north-central Arizona for the past week or so,
dog-sitting for an old and trusted friend. During
this time, I have endured what seems to be a complete
failure of my anti-depressant medications. I have
felt hopelessness and ann inability to cope that
seems to breathe its rancid breath from within my
bones. My life has fallen apart as parts of me have
collapsed through doorways to separate dimensions.
The revelation I’ve had is that I’m now not just
looking for a home, but for a place in which I
belong. I know where I belong: at Mary’s side. But I
am too weak. In shame, then, I look far away for a
place in which I can become invisible to all those
who have known me. If I look and can’t find a place
of anonymous belonging, there is but one path left,
and that path I will follow.